Tonight was a bit of Déjà vu for many reasons.
I went to the hospital tonight. It was a year to the date when I went to the
hospital for my nervous breakdown.
Luckily tonight, it wasn't for that reason. Instead it was because I sprained my ankle
badly while Irish Dancing at a pub. No I
was not drinking. Maybe if I had, I wouldn't have sprained it so badly. Luckily, there was a medic, Chris, at the pub who
helped me and there was another woman there, Beth, who let me hold her hand;
they both stayed by my side until I was able to get transportation to the
hospital. I was very grateful for my new
friend Yev, who I had just met the other night at an Irish Dancing gig. He drove me to the hospital and stayed with me
until I was ready to leave; and he then drove me home and helped me get to my place!
Last time I sprained my ankle
(same ankle unfortunately), I had just moved to Colorado. Here I was now and I just moved to San
Francisco. What took me less than a week
to sprain in Colorado, took me a month to sprain in San Francisco. So I’m now aware of the care that is needed
to help this foot heal and I will not push it.
Unfortunately, it’s going to be bit of a long road. I have to rest for 3 days and I’m to use the
crutches for 2 weeks. (And I’m supposed
to work this week, which requires a lot of walking). Then it will take anywhere from 2-6 months to
heal. So, there will be no dancing, no bike riding, and no going to the gym for
me for a long time. I have to be even more careful in the future because it’s
more likely to sprain more, especially since it has already been sprained
twice.
It was an interesting day today as I was reflecting back on
my past year,,,even prior to all of this happening. Although I do have to say
it was an awful year and I was at my darkest, I also have to say that I am
grateful for this year…including what happened tonight. It’s been a tremendous learning curve for me
and for that I am grateful. I feel
stronger, but most importantly I feel happy...I am happy.
I’m happy for many reasons, but the number one reason is
because I’m learning about myself and the beauty I possess. I’m learning more about my purpose and I’m
surrounding myself with very positive people in my life. I feel as though I’m moving forward rather
than falling behind. I'm cutting out the crap and keeping quality.
I enjoy being here
in San Francisco and I especially love being alone. Although I’m an extrovert, I do appreciate
being an introvert at the same time. I
like having my own space. Although you would think I’d be terrible
lonely not knowing anyone in the city, I do have to say, I actually feel wonderful. Sure loneliness will creep
in, but it’s very rare and it’s not too long before I give myself a pep talk
and I’m out of that mindset. I like it
because there are no expectations here for me to be someone I’m not. I can just
be myself and I’m learning to be okay with all of that. I like it here because there is opportunity
for me here. There is opportunity for me
to be whoever I want to be and do whatever I want to...of course within reason. I like it
here because I feel free. I like it here because the weather is so tolerable. Overall, I like it here because it provides me a different outlook on life.
Thank you for reading! Have a wonderful day!
Oh, my beautiful Aoife! On crutches again! I'm so sorry that you sprained your ankle, and that you had to go to the hospital! BUT, look at how far you've come since the last time you sprained that ankle! You should be so proud of yourself. I know I'm proud of you!
ReplyDeleteI'm so pleased that you are happy, and that you are getting such happiness and freedom from your adventure! It is everything I wished for you, so I'm very glad!
I know what you mean about living alone. I absolutely loved it, and it felt very freeing for me, too!
Didn't know you knew how to Irish step dance! I have such admiration for Irish dancers!! When I visited Ireland, my friend and I took a beginner's step dance class, and it was so fun! We were definitely extremely uncoordinated and looked positively ridiculous, but we had a GREAT time doing it!!
Hang in there, be gentle with your ankle, and continue to enjoy your time in SF! xoxoxox